Arggh Winter should be over now! Why is it not over! Its the Illuminati they want to kill all us proles, with colds and flu and UNSEASONABLE WEATHER. 😛
Well they are not going to get me, I’m far too Awesome for that 🙂 [and so are you if you admit it]
Family on the mend. Henry and Rach made great strides forward this week. Kick in the teeth though is that I’m dad-alone this weekend cos Rach’s work put her on 5 days of shifts 🙁 Oh well we’ve been here before and it is so much more palatable (fun even) in the big extended house.
I”ve got a lot more energy. Still a bit cold ridden, but more 10%-25% than before. Proper sleep and good diet (as in cut waayyyyy down on the processed food during/after work and replace it with more fruit ) is doing wonders and propping up the bloody mindedness that has prevented me from falling ill fully, to the point were that bloody mindedness has become a calm strength 🙂 I WIN!
The downside of course of all this sudden energy has been a huge fustration that its still winter and that I can’t race ahead with my best made plans.
I let my rage out this afternoon, while Grandma had the kids for couple of hours and I was left home alone.It wasn’t a particularly fun test drive. It involved
- Loud distorted rock music,
- Playing Max Payne 3, one of the most violent computer games in the history of computer games.
- Feeling hard done and sorry for myself,
- Annoyed that in Leeds they’ve glassed over the inner City Centre to form another High Church to Capitialism.
- Being indignant and enraged about the gov’s plan to break the law and not pay people who worked for free on their Workforce scheme. [Which is ok, but go and sign the e-petition to call them on it and get them to back down]
- Some random chap who’s not fulfilled his Kickstarter obligations and admitted hes being lazy about it on his blog rather than telling his backers via proper updates.
And then my mate posted a link to Boris Johnson, being called up for “sandpapering the truth” on telly this morning.
Then a strange thing happened. I cracked up laughing, and got out of my Rage state (or more accurately Nerdrage since I was sat in front of the PC at the time).You see Boris Johnson by my set of personal values is an awful awful vile man, but I can not take him seriously because he’s what I call a Clown. In my book a Clown is “Someone who is so far off the Way of proper and decent behavior, I have to laugh instead of cry or get upset”.
Which made me realise that laughing in the face of Darkness, leaving you in a state of love and capable of countering it, is much better than getting angry and made impotent by your rage 🙂