Ok its me again, being all soppy* and ‘new agey’** on you. But really, take 12, sit and open your mind. This stuff really works (and has been for a good twenty years for me 🙂 ).
Notes:
* My Kung Fu master used to say “when Softest becomes the Hardest”
** This stuff is actually very very very old, its just we are remembering it in this so called ‘New age’
If you underestimate the power of turning on the Awesome and bringing home the Win.
Or you think its just a cute phrase I shout out on Twitter without any power in reality.
Watch and absorb this….
Also for me when I lose my mojo.
Some time ago I signed up for the Uk roleplayers dice , today they arrived! Alas my youngest Henry has already claimed them 😀
So the midwinter break is coming to an end for me. It’s been an awesome two weeks off work for me. Not really done a great deal, been mainly enjoying family time.
I’m looking forward to 2013, with a small amount of excitement and trepidation in equal measure.2012 has been a game of two halves. Real suckage upto about May/June, followed by a period of recovery over the summer, and then a steady rise and regeneration over the last part of the year. I now end the year much much wiser and dare I say it ‘realised’ than at the beginning.
The best thing about this is that I’m back in the driving seat of my life 🙂 The worst thing is realising that I’ve spent the best part of my 41 years fulfilling the wishes and dreams of other people (mainly the path set down of bettering my self according to my parents middle class expectations). From here on in its up to me to find my own way, while still remaining harmonious with those around me. 2012 was enough of a training ground on that front so with a bit of sensitivity it should be really easy to achieve this 🙂
A small hint (excuse me if this gets a bit ‘metaphysical’) about what 2012/2013 is about as far I as I perceive it at this current time. We have entered the Aeon of Horus well and truly. Subtly behind the scenes things are rearranging themselves. Information moves from other dimensions into this one, changing from immaterial thought forms to the physical, Learn to tune in and work with this flow to your and other’s advantage. Recognise there is no US or THEM, and those who seek to divide the One that is the Many have already lost. They are like a chicken without a head, squawking and desperately trying to impose their twisted vision upon the world in the dying moments of their attempt of Total Control. They employ methods that in the current Aeon will simply become less and less effective.
Remember be Awesome to one another, and make this Reality full of Win 🙂
Gosh already? Is my first thought on this one. Then a realisation that 40 was a busy busy year indeed (as briefly touched on in my previous post). Indeed 41 is already quite brisk and I must endeavour to keep this place a bit more updated to reflect that.
So the actual day was Friday just gone, and it was very low key indeed. I nearly let the family sleep in, while I quietly slipped out to work, but my mother in law Elaine turned up (she regularly helps with the school run and is a big supporter in childcare in general with both me and Rachel working) and reminded me the kiddies would have wanted to give me presents and cards. So everyone was quickly risen and presents were presented. Win. I then went into work, for the first time in years, a necessary sacrifice considering the mess my Annual leave got into last year. But hey it was a quiet but productive day and I saw my mate John Ossoway, a long time collaborator with D101, for lunch at the aptly named Happiness noodle bar, just across the road from where I work. Then home to a quiet night in with the family and birthday Pizza for Tea! No fine real ales since I’m still shifting me winter sniffles 🙁
Saturday was an awesome day. Bright and sunny, me and the kids had a lazy day around the house, while Rachel who has Bronchitis at the moment, took it easy. A quick trip to Tandle Hill Country Park, with Evie and Henry, ice cream, slides and small kiddy bikes. Aceness 🙂
Sunday was almost the complete opposite. When I awoke it had rained heavily, and the freezing fog was everywhere. I feel a huge snotty cold emerge, and with my achy limbs, I proceeded to be a grumpasaurus to all concerned. Then I remembered my wife’s recent warning; “Do you want to be known as the Grumpy old man?” and got my head together and my emotions under control. A process that I call becoming Awesome and bringing home the Win 😉 The day drastically picked up from there. Briefly went out to the local garden centre, to pick up Halloween bags for the kids, and then a quick trip to Morrisons to do the weekly shop. To top off this day I had a cracking RPG game, Savage Worlds Weird War 2, where our little group was bolstered to three players!!!
Overall I’m feeling a confident 41, well on the mend from all the upsets that plagued my 40th year. Here’s to my 42, where I finally get round to having the party/event that I should have had when I was 40 😉
Well this little old blog has once again moved home. First from LiveJournal ( which I joined as an early adopter in 1999, and is now a sad ghost of its former self ), then via its first self hosted WordPress incarnation at the web host I’ve just moved from ( a typical story of a small man operation whose customer service suffered when it grew beyond that) to my current host ( a much more robust hosting company with excellent dedicated technical support, but for which I’m paying a pretty penny).
Its nice that despite all these technical ups and downs the blog has endured over ten years 🙂
Ok looking back at my blog posts here (newtus.co.uk if you are reading this via feed or Facebook) there’s a noticeable thinning out since 2008. I’ve recently realised that life has been repeatly bashing me over the head for the last five years or so. I think its called ‘growing up’ 🙂
The big news of course is that we are now back in Castle Newport on the top of the hill overlooking sunny Royton town, part of the Oldham metropolitan district. The builders , after being confronted about when they would finish before Christmas (“you said four months when I asked you at our first meeting and then before Christmas back in October, its before Christmas now”. ) got their act together and finished their building work in Feb, and we got the house fit to move in (decorators and carpeting) by early April. There’s still outstanding work that is only just getting finished (garden lights and a fireplace) and the whole thing is a tale in itself ( a cautionary one). Lets just say we hired the Building company to do the extension building and project manage all the subcontractors, and while they get a B+ for the building ( a complex and big job which doubled the size of our house ) they get a definite F for the project management size of things. Both Rachel and my next door neighbour Marie say they need a woman to tell them what to do, which is a damning statement indeed 😛
The build put me under allot of pressure, as well as the ongoing pressure of looking after Evie & Henry, but I was taken to breaking point and beyond when my dad was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer (well if you will be a daft bugger and chain smoke for 30+ years) in February and died on 2nd April this year. His funeral was in late April, Easter got in the way, and then sorting out his estate (or rather letting go of the responsibility – since his estate was insolvent) took us surviving Newport’s up to June (I think, details are a bit hazy). Again I may write more fully about this, but summing up it was a brief (in the scheme of how these things can be) and brutal five months. I’m over the harsh debilitating effects of his death, nothing could have prepared me for the extreme physical weakness and tiredness, the angry outbursts and general scatterbrain that I was in the immediate aftermath. Didn’t help that this carcrash happened as we were moving back in and settling in. I’m completely fine about it now, which is weird in itself. It’s like it has happened in a parallel universe most of the time, and all I need to do is ring Dad up and have a chat about the Olympics or the last of the builders nonsense cos I’ve been a bad son and not rung him in ages. Then I realise I can’t (well I could but mum’s got his mobile and that would freak her out 😉 ) . It will hit me at Christmas.
Its not all been doom and gloom. Conpulsion a gaming convention in Edinburgh over Easter was a great break from the doom and gloom back in April and things distinctly picked up in the summer that really is only just coming to an end here. Highlights, which I will give time to and do proper blog posts about, have been a family trip to Euro Disney ( I MET TIGGER!!), Continuum gaming convention, our two week holiday in West Norfolk (no sniggering at the back there, moi family comes from there ) and a camping weekend just gone. Settling into the house has been a big priority, and somewhat disrupted by all the holidaying 🙂 The new house itself is awesome, although sometimes a bit confusing ( where the frack do we put all our tupperware – but we have tons of kitchen cupboards ), and we now have the family home (and then some) that me and Rachel (ok Rachel mainly) have been planning for the last ten years or so.
Now its time to see where the adventure takes us next 🙂
“Things will get much easier very soon, as long as you engage with it now“ says the voice straight from the ever loving pulsating source.
Did you receive that one? I did loud and proud about a week ago, a couple of days before life got completely crazy , even by the high standards crazy set by my good self in my drug n booze addled twenties. Except this time I’m completely sober and apart from a few annoying habits pretty tight sanity wise.
……its been a rough time but equally a time of magic, wonder and awe.
The world is changing, for the better I believe 🙂
Watch the skies. Observe your inner world. Its all important.
(More to follow)
……the centre piece of the new extended house.